before i start tapping the keyboard with stuff that is essentially metaphysics or rather pseudo intellectual in nature(by default and for the purpose of uniformity of the posts on this blog) i would like to ask people, who are into blogging,whether they are populist by any chance. i mean what is the purpose of blogging if no one reads your blog? and in order to do so you ought to create, filter , dilute , modify, fabricate the content in your posts!! so essentially i believe the people who blog are someone like me who are looking for popularity and crying out loud for attention!!! more on this later...
hmmm.. let me begin now. long time ago when i was in class 9th or so and when my sis was in std.11th,she told me about this novel by Charles dickens titled "great expectations". the story dealt with this young, proletariat boys' obsession to be "uncommon" or rather different. somehow i instantly bonded with this character, christened as "pip".from that day onwards i have sub-consciously ( and i must admit unsuccessfully) tried to be different. i have complicated things in my life which, if i had been my usual self, would have been so simple. i realised that i am a person who likes to bask in the limelight, to be appreciated, to be applauded, to be accepted by the crowd and at the same time i have this queer desire to be a lonewolf. in contradictions , so far i have lived my life. this blog i believe is perhaps another reflection of this paradox. on one side i want these random, mindless scribblings to be appreciated by the "crowd"; and at the same time i dish out the same "pseudo intellectual" stuff in order to appear different; not a part of the "coarse and common" crowd.i have failed to understand that why i can't be what i am.i fail to grasp why,this facade of aloofness and profundity that i at times try to adorn myself with, can't be thrown and burnt for good. i simply fail.......
life, i tell you, is meant to be lived simply; to be lived as a human being...
4 comments:
living was never so facile.. life is never a picnic....
but then, these must be taken as inadvertent and adventitious moieties
of the discerning human psyche... all to be dealt in stride.. with as much nonchalance as we tend to exhibit towards some of the imperative oughts of daily life.. n dunno, perhaps toil n njoy till we can.... coz there r people around in similar doldrums... but r oblivious.. and are in pseudo-bliss.. its not that bad i guess..........
living was never so facile.. life is never a picnic....
but then, these must be taken as inadvertent and adventitious moieties
of the discerning human psyche... all to be dealt in stride.. with as much nonchalance as we tend to exhibit towards some of the imperative oughts of daily life.. n dunno, perhaps toil n njoy till we can.... coz there r people around in similar doldrums... but r oblivious.. and are in pseudo-bliss.. its not that bad i guess..........
u wanna live life like the howard roark of the fountain head? impassive inert indifferent stubborn- these words shd be associated wid u in that case, cos a simple life means no expectations, and no expectations means u r not a social being! u wanna only give give and give widout expecting the returns? or u wanna be banished from all the give-n-takes of the world?
perfection is a curse, u r lifeless if u dont expect any returns in life!
It is a truth that every human being likes words of appreciation.All of us crave for importance and attention.But when u r trying to be what you are not,it actually shows on ur face and you look fake.And then when realization dawns,u r sick of evryhing around and we feel like i just want to be myself and live the way i want to.I'll not live the way others want me to live.I just want to be taken as i am.And people who just love u the way u are,they are ur best friends.we'll change ourselves for them not for others.
Try to be urself and sooner or later u'll be more truly accepted by all and u urself will be more happy.
Oh my god,too much of a lecture :P
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