before i start tapping the keyboard with stuff that is essentially metaphysics or rather pseudo intellectual in nature(by default and for the purpose of uniformity of the posts on this blog) i would like to ask people, who are into blogging,whether they are populist by any chance. i mean what is the purpose of blogging if no one reads your blog? and in order to do so you ought to create, filter , dilute , modify, fabricate the content in your posts!! so essentially i believe the people who blog are someone like me who are looking for popularity and crying out loud for attention!!! more on this later...
hmmm.. let me begin now. long time ago when i was in class 9th or so and when my sis was in std.11th,she told me about this novel by Charles dickens titled "great expectations". the story dealt with this young, proletariat boys' obsession to be "uncommon" or rather different. somehow i instantly bonded with this character, christened as "pip".from that day onwards i have sub-consciously ( and i must admit unsuccessfully) tried to be different. i have complicated things in my life which, if i had been my usual self, would have been so simple. i realised that i am a person who likes to bask in the limelight, to be appreciated, to be applauded, to be accepted by the crowd and at the same time i have this queer desire to be a lonewolf. in contradictions , so far i have lived my life. this blog i believe is perhaps another reflection of this paradox. on one side i want these random, mindless scribblings to be appreciated by the "crowd"; and at the same time i dish out the same "pseudo intellectual" stuff in order to appear different; not a part of the "coarse and common" crowd.i have failed to understand that why i can't be what i am.i fail to grasp why,this facade of aloofness and profundity that i at times try to adorn myself with, can't be thrown and burnt for good. i simply fail.......
life, i tell you, is meant to be lived simply; to be lived as a human being...
