Friday, February 18, 2011

Ashes in the Wake of a Dream




'Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick...'
It had been a long day. He could have sworn that he had felt every second tick by. The heaviness of each moment was etched in his head; like screeching tyre marks made by a skidding car on a slippery, lonely highway.  As he walked up to his apartment, with nothing but the jangle of the bunch of keys in his pocket to break the silence, the skies opened up. He looked skywards; fat, lead-like droplets of water rushed to meet his furrow lined face. He didn't flinch... he let those fallen-from-grace molecules meet their predictable fate, and enjoy their dignified last rite.

Carefully, he turned the keys to open the doors to his apartment. Darkness swiftly moved in from every corner of the house to embrace him... hardly the kind of reception a tired body and a drained out mind wishes for. His lips curled in a condescending smile...he was used to this ritual of rancid, decaying welcome that he was meted out for quite sometime. The novelty of it all, had long been lost. He prepared himself for what lay ahead. His nocturnal date with his mistress. Slowly, he pushed open the doors to his room... there she lay in her majestic, carnal grandeur on his bed; her hair waving in their opulence; enticing him with the shadows that moved on the walls in demonic fashion as lightening bolt after lightening, broke the silence between them. He switched on the lights.. "Not in the mood, right now, darling", said he as Senorita EMPTINESS left his presence and shrunk away in a corner.. He knew she would be back; it was sometime before he went to sleep. He had a sinking feeling in his heart which told him that she will get what she wanted from him. La Belle Dame Sans Merci... she was beautifully cruel; in her own morbid ways. He acknowledged that as he lit a cigarette and let the puffs of smoke perform their 'dance macabre' before fading out of existence...

He turned on the television. "Television is a great invention; it provides useful and sometimes necessary distraction from the web of life.." he admired the idiot box for its ubiquitous utility. He stared at the screen without paying too much attention; the action playing out on it was more like a background noise for the agitation inside his cranium. And with every puff he inhaled, it became all the more distant and incoherent.  Outside, the rain had stopped. A cool breeze was blowing across his room and he let it caress his nape. He lowered the 'stick of death' kissing his lips to drop off the ashes. The wind swept it across in a flouncing, Brownian motion. He extinguished the cigarette and switched off the television; all in one nonchalant movement of his torso. It was time to mate the black widow he had left unsatisfied in his bedroom. He switched off the light and let her swoop over his existence to consummate their alliance in an all consuming, unforgiving sadistic love.

The ash from the cigarette was scattered all over the room....

8 comments:

Divita said...

A little more on Television, and you can write a book on this.

Extremely poignant.

Jhaya said...
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Jhaya said...

Blown away! You're a kid vampire! Your age is like 500 or smth, how old was Yoda anyway? Your looks are totally totally deceptive.

The other day, my friend, Rajat Mishra was quoting me Bruce Lee, “Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless - like water. Now you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup, you put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle, you put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend.”

To which I said: Well, If you r like water, how the hell could u be free like air, when all boiled up? When boiled up, you'd be an agitated air rather than a freely flowing one. And what if u became too chilled? Back to solid again! now this solid ice has certain problems. First, it sticks to the container. Also, and this solid would be not nicely kept but frigid and rigid with air bubbles trapped inside! Then u deliberately need a temperature change to make it freely flowing again, second, since water could be solid then why the heck anyone want his mind to be water when his could be a mostly harmless and pliable marsh mallow? I reckon, ur mind should be like electromagnetic rays! And it is like so! So, dear Mr. Bruce Lee don't degrade our minds by making them something so earthly! It's just that when we should be multitasking million things, we just multitask a few and restrict ourselves like the gravitation restricts the mortal us! So, the unused parts of the brain would definitely belch the lactic acid being fermented every second of our miserably restricted life on earth out. That's why we never get to the electromagnetic part and listen to Bruce Lee! Like the fuck he knows about life! But yeah he and other Chinese janta have achieved a level of an extirpated mind that makes them so agile, u know, those cool kung fu skills!

Okay the point I wanna make is...this is exactly what I have been feeling everytime I enter my room for the past 11 years. Even though we are supposed to multi-task and forget the unimportant details, we still hopelessly give into them! Hah here lies the reason as to why human mind cannot use the other 99% of the brain! Maybe our environment on earth lacks some nutrient to make our brain more useful! I don't want it to diminish during the course of evolution! We have to make 'love' as expendable as 'money'!

eLmoNiv said...

dayumm!!

Painfully beautiful. Your writing makes one feel.

Arthur Dent said...

@Divita- If I knew how the story was going to end, yes, I would have turned it into a book.

@Sowmya-Chinese are good at selling, and that includes toxic plastic to haywire theories.
Vampire, yes! Kid-no way!

@eLmoNiv- We all write, what we feel, don't we?

eLmoNiv said...

Yes, some of us write what we feel, but the ability to make the reader feel is a sign of talent :)

Jhaya said...

@eLmoNiv: Agreed!!! :)

bledoredum said...

ignore them dude, i know ur talents as a writer are not existent...;)..